The inspiration from this post comes from a small errands run in my car and the creation of this blog. I was driving to hand in one of the many sets of documents needed just to be able to step foot into a school while listening to a playlist of Rihanna songs, all from her ANTI album. Lately I’ve been listening to a lot of dark music and songs that remind me that I haven’t yet cried today and I’m due for a good sob session any second. I decided to take a break from this self indulgence and actually try enjoying my drive.
I’m finally starting to feel like myself, getting my motivation back on track and getting out of my own head for at least a little while. I was thinking about Rihanna and how she holds herself in the public eye. Rihanna is in a word, bad. In the best way. Every song exudes confidence and why? Because she knows what she wants and she knows who she is. This summer Drake, who had been publicly in love with her for years, finally got his shot with her. Then what does he do? He breaks up with her. No, I don’t know them personally and I don’t know what role Rihanna played in the end of this relationship, but what does she do after this? Posts fire after fire video of her latest single on Instagram and deletes the woman she previously followed, who Drake is currently hooking up with (J.Lo) and goes on with her bad self. That to me is #goals.
This year I want to be my own Rihanna. I probably will not become a multiplatinum singer who can dry my own tears up with a Gucci purse, but I’m starting to realize different opportunities that I have in my own way. I have never been one to really think that I have any particular skills. I went to college, realized I was okay at working with kids, went to grad school, realized I was better at working with kids with specialized needs and I thought that’s all that needed to be done to keep me fulfilled. That’s when I got the idea for this blog. I love writing and I love hearing that other people enjoy reading my writing. This year, I’d like to focus on things that I am good at. I’ve realized recently that your career is not necessarily the only thing that you need to be good at, or the only thing that you need to be focused on. Starting a social media platform where I can put out my thoughts into the world and take pictures and connect with people online is another passion of mine that I unfortunately did not major in in college. But that isn’t going to stop me from doing just that this year.
Take something you like to do and make it into something you can give to people. For me, this took 24 years to realize. I was never inherently good at anything. I don’t even know if I’m good at writing but it’s something that I enjoy and something that I can build on and keep moving forward with. This year I’m going to keep learning about myself but I’m also not going to get in my own way. Didn’t they tell you that I was a savage?