First, let me just start by saying I’m sorry for the short hiatus. I haven’t felt very inspired lately and I think I know why. I don’t like writing fluff pieces, I never have. Even in school my essays were alway short because I found it too cheesy to put in excess information. As much as I rant on this platform I always like to feel like each piece of writing is important. The reason I haven’t had much inspiration lately is because I haven’t exactly felt content but I also haven’t felt upset either. Usually if something is bothering me I could write until the cows come home (is that a phrase still – was it ever a phrase?). However, when my mood is either above being depressed but just below being content, I don’t have much to say. I feel like I’m just drifting along waiting for things to happen – good or bad.
On to the point of this post. Today is a good day. Today I received a job that will open the door to other jobs that will kick start my career. I am more than content today, which is why I finally found the inspiration to actually put pen to paper – figuratively speaking. When I called my dad to tell him the good news, he told me something that really opened my eyes. He said, everything you do may seem like it just happened or it was a complete fluke, but everything that’s happening to you is because you’re making it happen. I would say my weakest point in my self esteem is how I view myself as a professional. Many people have told me that I am a great special educator but I would never say that about myself – especially out loud. I love the newfound confidence I have in my chosen field but it’s not often that I really feel like I am doing something worth giving a second look at. However, after today I’m starting to realize all the steps that I’ve taken to get here were not taken in vain. I did them, I put the work in and I found the place I’m supposed to be.
This is not to say everything in my life is going smoothly and I have everything I want because of hard work and dedication. Yes I’ve worked hard but I’m still growing and learning how to make myself happy in different aspects of my life. The details of that would require an entirely new post. For now, I guess my advice would be to give yourself recognition. As much as I believe in serendipitous situations, it’s also important to recognize what you have accomplished and worked towards. I’m going to start recognizing the work I put in while staying humble. I know I can always do better and I can always put in more but I will treat myself to the idea that I am capable. Take that as you will lovelies.